Not only are you not allowed to have independent radio in Zimbabwe - I'd tried with Capital Radio in 2000 and got shut down after six days - it's also difficult to do it regionally as neighbouring countries don't want to get involved at this level.

I'm not comfortable with words like 'secret radio station' and 'exiles' because I don't believe we're doing anything that shouldn't be on air.

But we don't advertise our street address because it's foolish to just say, 'Here we are, come and get us'. There are CIO operatives [secret police] in the UK. Maybe they wouldn't do anything...

I did live a more alert life. There's that lovely quote, 'I'm not tense, I'm very, very alert' - it was a bit like that. I didn't worry about my personal safety on a minute by minute basis, but if somebody decided to target me, that was the threat.

Let the people speak

Up until the mid-1990s, Zimbabwe was doing very nicely. Tourism was huge, farming and tobacco crops were magnificent. But in 1997 came the big crash - it was purely self-inflicted. The dollar crashed and inflation started to bite.

One morning, there was a demonstration against rising prices and the police reacted violently. The station was inundated with calls, and eventually I opened the phone lines to allow people to talk. Many condemned the police violence.

The station management phoned me several times to tell me to stop. Fifteen minutes before I was due to come off air, the head of the station came down and escorted me from the studio.

Radio station raided

After they fired me, I fought a long court battle to win the right to set up an independent radio station, which I won in 2000.

That gave me four working days. I had no equipment and no people as staff were very reluctant to join. I located a transmitter and started broadcasting a music signal from a hotel room, just to get on air. Such was the need that people were ringing up saying, 'I love your station'.

Six days down the line, armed police shut us down. One hour before the raid, Mugabe had used his presidential powers to make it once again illegal to own a transmitter.

Providing balance

We'd like to do research on our listenership, but with the violence there a researcher would just get beaten to a pulp.

In many rural areas, we're the only source of non-state controlled news. Not only is it hard to get papers out to the rural areas, the vendors of independent newspapers have been beaten up and harassed.

Zimbabweans are feeling very isolated now and very disheartened with the international community.

For two - almost three years - we've been listening to the EU and the Commonwealth saying they're cross with the Mugabe regime. Many just think, 'So what? You're cross - my brother's been killed, my cousin's been tortured.'

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